I amn extremely happy to have my independence and cherish it. However, I grow weary of maintaining sexual temperance and living the celibate life which is an unnatural state of being for me. I also find myself increasingly craving female companionship and physicality. However, I'm not willing to settle for Ms. Right-Now and lose my independence to somebody unworthy of me. I chose to wait for God's will to reveal itself to me, I await His choice and solution.