Last night I was struggling with what felt like an insurmountable online homework burden due at 11:30 p.m. for which I had this overwhelming mental block that it could not be accomplished in time or that I could even do some of it at all due to its seeming technical complexity. Failure to do this work would threaten my ability to pass this class and graduate this coming May. It would also endanger my financial aid based upon my being a full-time student versus a part-time student. The previous online homework module saw me hardly complete any of it and fall completely out of contention for an A in the class due to my work schedule and poor time management by me. I soldiered on last night and did not quit and "kept chopping wood" and was able to "Brake On Through To The Other Side" to quote a Doors song title and lyric which is in my head tonight.
Also last night I completed composing a letter to my friend and boss listing changes in his behavior around me he will need to enact if I am to continue to work for him as the work environment has become increasingly frustrating and stressful not to mention dehumanizing. I will tolerate no more indignities and outrages from this man. I realized the time had come for this step a couple of weekends ago at the Ventura Gem & Mineral Show. After realizing this I could not get the Doors song "The End" out of my head for much of one of the days of the show. I don't know if I should have done this sooner but I finally did it after thinking about it since last year and often considering quitting out of frustration and exasperation. I mailed the missive this morning and had great peace in my heart throughout the composition of this piece and while printing it and while and since sending it off.
I am rather surprised and struck by two phenomenon that have emerged during this period. One is the surprisingly great peace and confidence I possess in my heart despite the fact my association with this man is probably over as a result of the letter. The other is the striking level of blessing I experienced today seeming as if in response to this act of faith in placing everything on the line with my primary employer. Everything went right for me today from big things to little thing both in regards to things to which I was expecting some less desirable outcome as well as in things I did not even see coming at all. I had an unexpected and delightful lunch with my dearest female friend other than my own mother. My public speaking class today went smooth and I understood some concepts being taught in it that had previously eluded me not to mention got back an assignment for which I got 100% credit and now feel in control in that class. I got a B and not a D on my math test last Wednesday I discovered tonight and understood everything discussed in math tonight. I got around to finally doing some small household chores that I have not been able to previously muster the energy to make myself do like take down my Christmas lights. I walked my dog for a second time today and dieted today getting the feeling I lost weight. I got show chairman business accomplished over the phone. I got employment lined up for myself tomorrow. I even received a part-time job offer via email this morning. It was an unbelievable day with other details I won't get into but this suffices as a nice sampler.
I am excited at what the future holds for me with all of its inevitable changes and transitions all the while God is sovereign and omnipotent and fully in control of everything in my life and I trust Him wholly to provide for me and protect me as He has always done and always will.
Below are the two aforementioned Doors song for your edification.